transition.

my life, for the past while, has been in a constant phase of transition. i know that we are always moving, adapting, creating, but transitioning to me seems like it trumps it all. at least where i'm at. the everyday inspirations, conversations, musings are all in limbo. the search for new beginning has started whether my mind is ready for it or not.

when i drove to LA 2 years ago my mindset was so different. at the time i felt like i was leaving so much behind and putting huge relationships on hold to follow what God had for me at the time. it was heartbreaking, but i knew it was right. the drive was filled with thoughts of what i was leaving and hoping the decision was right. there was uncertainty in the act of leaving, but not in the act of arriving.

this transition is totally different. i'm not stepping into a position, i'm not guaranteed anything. there is this shroud of uncertainty that is both frightening and liberating. really, for the first time in my life, there is so much i don't know.

well, there is one truth.

God is God, and i am not.

most people look at me with a blank stare when i tell them i've been excited to drive to ohio. i love it because there is time for reflection and time to soak in God's creation that typically goes unnoticed.

for instance, this morning i witnessed the marvelous sunrise at the grand canyon. i stood in utter amazement at this portrait God was literally painting before my eyes. by the time the sun was coming up there were countless tourists with their cameras trying to capture this indescribable moment using a man-made device. seems like a feeble attempt, but it proves that there is still this innate fascination with things bigger than us. see, no matter how hard anyone tried, they could never come close to recreating that sunrise, let alone recreating everyday.

we are all spectators of this wonderful creation that God has built for us. think about all that is beautiful in this world...

all of it was made at His hand.

and to really blow our minds, that sunrise would have happened if no human being were there to witness it. why?

because this world can't contain His beauty.

if we could just understand that creation is constantly worshipping Christ, then we would take better care of it. not only that, but our hearts would be connected with it. i'm not saying "we are one with creation" but i AM saying that we were created by the same God for the same purpose.

to worship of wonderful creator.

so, back to this transition.

i know that i know nothing. but i know God won't let me down. this is the most exciting time of my life and i don't intend on wasting it on stresses that aren't worthwhile. i'm just going to do my best to join with the rest of God's creation and worship Him with all that i am.

not on subject, but a powerful verse i just read:
Romans 12:9
"Don't just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good."